Don’t die a hoarder of your words

Don't die a hoarder of your words

One of the best stories I’ve ever written sits unpublished in a Google Docs folder.

I reread it for the first time in a long time the other day.

I reported and wrote it more than a year ago for a magazine writing class that focused heavily on creating vivid scenes through powerful dialogue and concrete details. It had been a long time since I’d done that kind of writing, which I’d mostly only ever attempted in fiction, but I became obsessed with the process.

The story lent itself well to such detailed description. It took place in an impoverished desert town a couple hours outside of Los Angeles, where stray dogs dart in front of cars and the streets have names like “Avenue R.” My main source was a vigilante on a mission, a tough yet generous woman, but the central character of the story was a dangerous, evil man—and the cause of a lot of division in the small community.

When I opened this story for the first time in months (with the idea of possibly fictionalizing it), I expected all its flaws to immediately jump out and remind me why the sole editor I pitched it to rejected it. But instead, all I thought reading it was, “I can’t believe I didn’t send this around. What was wrong with me?” As many publications as there are out there, this story could have and would have found a home, I’m now sure.

This lack of follow-through upon the completion or near-completion of a piece of work is certainly not unique to me. How many writers at some point in their lives have abandoned a story halfway through, given up after getting rejected once, or never let their work see the light of day because it’s never quite perfect? My guess is every single one. After all, no one shits rainbows every time.

But how many writers continue this self-defeating behavior throughout their lives, limiting themselves to mediocre success at best, disappointment and disenchantment at worst? More than we could ever know or guess, all because they’re not letting themselves be vulnerable to rejection and criticism.

Everyone has their excuses. For me, it was that the story still had some minor flaws in the structure I was unsure of how to fix. I didn’t have access to expensive court documents that would’ve taken it up a notch. I was afraid that the story’s central character—the violent, evil man—might find and hurt me. These were all valid concerns, but they were lousy excuses for letting the story die.

The kicker? The day after I dug this file up again, a major newspaper ran their own version of the story. The same central character, the same facts, even some of the same sources I’d written about and reported on more than a year ago! I have a feeling life will keep cheerily providing such lessons as this if I don’t make some adjustments.

Luckily, that was not the last good story I will ever write. The same goes for anyone else who blew an opportunity or is simply in a rut. Because contrary to the irrational yet commonly held fear that creativity is a well that runs dry, there will always be more to tap into as long as we remain open to it. We can’t be fully receptive to it, though, if we keep the things we create to ourselves. What good is shielding our hearts and our words from scrutiny?

If you still need further convincing, just remember, there is plenty of terrible writing readily available on the internet that’s thoughtlessly published every day by people who don’t even consider themselves writers. That content machine just keeps chugging. Don’t let those voices be the majority.

Death doesn’t discriminate, and it’d be a damn shame to die hoarding our work.

So quit tweaking, fiddling, second-guessing, and giving up, and start pitching, publishing, promoting and celebrating your writing. If you don’t, who else will?

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Comments

  1. Great article and one that inspires me to keep on trying to write something worth getting published. My approach so far is to find a contest that interests me, write something relevant and give it a shot. Two rejections later…. Anyway, I know everyone gets them but it doesn’t mean it’s easy to keep on trucking when you’re left wondering, did I do something wrong, or was it just not good enough? Do editors even tell you the whole truth in those letters, I mean, they were nice and all but didn’t give me the feedback I was looking for.
    Love your site and read lots of stories and articles into the wee hours last night, lol. Congrats on making the list too btw.!

    • Cassie Paton says:

      Congratulations on your rejections! (Seriously. You put yourself out there!)

      You raise questions I think every writer has at some point about editors. I’ve had such a range of experience with editors myself—everything from those who don’t touch a word (in which my thought process goes from “wow, my writing must be flawless!” to “did he/she even read it?”) to those who end up inserting a typo into the first damn sentence. But so many just don’t respond period, and that can be so frustrating. It’s hard when you don’t get feedback to know whether your work is even in the ballpark of what they’re looking for. I think the reality is, most editors are just so overworked and bombarded with pitches/requests/inquiries that it can seem like they think you’re not worth their time when the reality is they just don’t HAVE the time to give the editorial critique on something that could possibly be a great fit if only some changes could be made. Not to mention all the sites that just publish the fluffy, readymade stuff… but I digress.

      Whew, that was long-winded and still barely scratched the surface on my personal thoughts, haha. But your comment gave me an idea for a future blog post on the subject, so more to come! And thanks so much for reading! Keep pitching. 🙂

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