Physical labor + unattainable goals = insanity

This past weekend was the 15th Annual Baltimore Book Festival, which, for me, meant three full days of unpaid physical labor in the heart of the city on a couple of the hottest days of the season.  Stationed at the information booth, official job title “Info Booth Captain” (fancy schmancy), I answered festival-goers’ questions and provided them with my wealth of knowledge about the three-day event, including what time Nigel Barker was speaking, where the bathrooms were, and the fact that, yes, there is a children’s section—you’re standing in it.

It was a long and tiring weekend. On Saturday, I went to bed at 10:30, which is something I haven’t done since I was about 13 years old, so that should give you an idea of just how exhausted I was. (I slept for a blissful 11 hours that night.) But I was lucky enough that the people I worked with were as friendly and helpful as they could be, and I also had the awesome experience of meeting Frog and Toad of Frog and Toad Are Friends.

BE JEALOUS!

I also bought a totally cool tank top and the lunch bag picture below from Squidfire, which is a rad local duo of artists.

Peanut butter sandwiches just got cooler.

One thing I did not do was buy books—I was mostly too tired to browse when I was on breaks, and book browsing takes a lot of effort. But I also have at least 20 books of my own that I’ve yet to read, so I should maybe get on that before I spend more money.

I’m glad to have had the experience of working Book Fest and seeing just how much goes into putting on such a large event. It still baffles me that anything gets accomplished ever by anyone anywhere. When I attended a Book Fest meeting with BOPA employees and neighbors a few weeks ago, it was interesting to see who else was in attendance. Everyone from the Department of Sanitation to the dudes that show up a week early to put up the tents know exactly what’s going on, and that’s pretty cool.

Speaking of books, I’m crazy. Because I’ve decided to write a book. A novel. In the course of a month. November 1st, 12 a.m. marks the first day of National Novel Writing Month, which ends at 11:59 p.m., November 30th. Thousands of people willingly sign up for this masochistic event and make a promise (or at least an attempt) to write 50,000 or more un-edited words in just 30 short days. I’ve been instructed by NaNoWriMo to shout my quest from the rooftops so that, if nothing else, a desire to not completely embarrass myself by failing at this surely-doomed attempt will motivate me to keep going and see my work through.

So, dear friends, I ask that you hold me to it. I’m going to write a horribly organized novel in the month of November.

Surely, this will make for some good blogging material, as well. In fact, it’s likely all I’ll talk or think about. I will probably not sleep well. I will probably bite happy people. But I will also write 50,000 words, at least. What’s great and also terrible is the fact that I am not allowed to edit myself whatsoever. This is a foreign thing to me. While some bloggers have no problem doing the whole stream of consciousness thing and then later making it actually sound good, I edit as I go. This often makes for a painstaking process when I’m blogging or writing a research paper or even drafting an important email. I strive for perfection every time. Not that everything I write is perfect, but sometimes I do occasionally think I am the definition of perfection, so this will be a nice, slap-in-the-face reminder that I am, in fact, not.

The one thing I do have going for me is the fact that I’ve actually had the same idea for a novel floating around in my head for over a year now. I’m excited about the concept, because the concept itself is definitely appealing. But it will be a great challenge executing it so that it’s interesting, makes sense, doesn’t make readers want to kill themselves and/or the main character, etc. I guess that’s the beauty of novel writing.

With that in mind, know that I may or may not be exceptionally angry, sarcastic, irritated, cynical and violent between now and November 30th. Starting now, I’ll be figuring out just what exactly I want this novel to say and be without actually writing the book itself. And then, it’s all downhill from there as nonsense spews from my fingertips and into the word processor.

If you’d like to join me in this sure-to-be tumultuous time, head over to NaNoWriMo and sign up. As I go along, I’ll update you on my progress, and you can either laugh at me or support me as you wish. If you choose the former, beware: I’m not kidding about that biting thing.

Don’t “judge” me

I mentioned in my last blog post that I earned an internship with Baltimore Office of Promotion & the Arts. That’s a crazy-long name, and family and friends are constantly asking me to repeat this name because they can’t remember it, so I usually give a slightly exasperated sigh before repeating BALTIMOREOFFICEOFPROMOTIONANDTHEARTS. I figure I’ll give each person three freebies, and from there on out I’m just going to call it BOPA and tell them they can Google it if they don’t remember what it stands for.

Long name aside, I am really excited about my internship with BOPA. I’m also really relieved my worries can finally be put to rest, because finding an internship compatible with my interests and school standards (City Paper, as credible and established as it is, didn’t make the cut for school) took all spring and summer of intensive searching, corresponding, and coordinating. My dedication to this alone proves my being worthy of BOPA, in my opinion. That, and their timing was perfect, so I believe it was meant to be. So congrats, BOPA! You’ve made the right choice!

In case you don’t know what it is I do, I am a Mass Communication major. This major is the umbrella to journalism, advertising, and public relations—my specialty. I think, for the most part, this has been a good fit for me. Despite my love for writing, I ended up deciding against journalism as a major and instead went with a creative writing minor to satisfy my need to write. Unfortunately, it seems a lot of people take me considerably less seriously when they learn that public relations is my major.

Example: when I went to court in June for a speeding ticket I had received a couple months prior (not guilty, BOPA, I swear), I watched the judge, clearly nearing retirement and just having a little bit of fun until that time came, question a number of defendants. Most people were nervous, irritated or downright guilty looking. Still, the judge was good-hearted, giving some folks a bit of a hard time just for kicks, and he let everyone get away without points on their licenses, regardless of their uber-lame excuses for speeding. (For the record, “I was driving down a hill” is a totally unoriginal excuse, and the judge hears it 0293482045 times a day.)

There were a couple of girls around my age who were still in school, and the judge asked them what they studied. One girl replied with “biology,” and another replied with something equally as impressive. Botany or law or something, I don’t know. After hearing these other students talking to the impressed judge, I knew exactly what was coming for me. “He’s going to ask me what my major is,” I whispered to my dad, who was there for moral support, “and he’s not going to take me seriously.”

And what did that judge exclaim to a clearly-anxious Cassie after asking what my major was? “That’s the easiest major in the world!” Thanks. Can I have my points taken off now? “Kids choose that major just so they can party!” That’s great. But can you please stop judging me for my major? Ah. Yes. You’re a judge. Crap.

I know the term “public relations” has certain implications and is often portrayed in TV or film as soulless work that any dingbat could do. And, truth be told, I do see many people in my major who don’t seem to take their work seriously—at least not as seriously as they take their hair-straightening rituals. Still, public relations in the real world is not how it seems for the most part, and it requires savvy skills and the willingness to work really hard. Also, if you can’t write a coherent sentence… well, don’t bother.

As it turned out, the judge that afternoon was nice enough and even went on to tell about his own son who was, in fact, a Mass Communication major who blew off his schoolwork and partied until he flunked out. (Meanwhile, during the judge’s long story, I’m shaking in my court-appropriate heels and trying to decide when exactly I should smile, nod, laugh, say “uh-huh” and the likes.) Afterwards, I managed to hold my head high leaving the stand while trying not to wonder what the other people in the courtroom waiting for their own sentences thought of me, just based on looks and major alone.

Overall, this episode served as even more reinforcement that I will have to constantly prove myself to be just as worthy, if not moreso, as any other soon-to-be college grad, which will mean working twice as hard, especially since I don’t go to some fancy $40,000-a-year school that looks awesome on a resume. I’ve had some great teachers at my school, and I think my writing skills and desire to learn have both improved and increased respectively since freshman year, but it’s not a school that causes people’s eyes to widen, heads nodding with a combination of surprise and approval, when you tell them you go there. But hey, when they’re drowning in $200,000 worth of student loans 20 years down the road, I’ll be debt-free. Who’s the smarty-pants now?

Luckily, this internship with BOPA will be the perfect opportunity to prove just how smart, talented and driven I really am. My sense of humor may occasionally be defined as immature (I’m a sucker for Michael Scott’s “that’s what she said” jokes), but I’m actually quite mature in all other facets. And, I’ll say it, I’m also damn smart.

So, starting tomorrow, I’ll be giving BOPA everything I’ve got. They’re a really great organization just based on what I know so far, and if the women I interviewed with are any indication of the rest of the people there, I can already tell it’s friendly and as non-threatening of an environment as a place can be to a new intern. BOPA is the organization that presents Artscape, which I attended a few weeks ago and mentioned in a recent post, and I’m excited to help put on the Baltimore Book Festival which will take place at the end of September and essentially be my project for the coming weeks.

Wish me luck and hope I don’t do something to embarrass myself on the first day like sneeze or fall at an inopportune time. That would surely leave a lasting impression… on my face.

Business casual-ing it for my first day of WORK. Photo credit: Elsbeth (little sister)

Proof of survival

You’re probably wondering what happened to Cassie on her camping trip. Was she eaten alive by bugs? Was she eaten alive by bears? Why is she writing in the third person? Something must’ve gone wrong.

No, my friends– all is well. In fact, camping might be my new favorite pasttime. I slept well in our cozy tent, managed to rescue a frightened young boy from a locked bathroom, and ended the trip by spending too much money on clothes for my new internship at Baltimore Office of Promotion & the Arts. More on that later.

For now, some visual content for those of you curious to see just what went on during my camping trip with John to Cape Henlopen State Park, Delaware. I believe the pictures speak for themselves, creating a lovely play-by-play of our long adventures spent outdoors. Imagine your favorite summer music playing in the background to create the perfect montage:

tent living

traveling lightly on bike

underground bunkers

one of many lookout towers

sexy Chiquita blowing in the wind

excuse me, I believe your house is drowning in sand

sunset on the dunes

John likes to wink at cameras

I’m already getting excited for our next camping getaway sometime in the fall, which, amazingly enough, is not that far away. I’d be more bummed about the fact that summer’s end is in sight, but there’s just too much to look forward to in the coming months. And I say that without a hint of sarcasm.