The “Lucky” Ones – An interview with Irish woodworking artist Aislinn Lynch

For this week’s The “Lucky” Ones interview, I have my first international interviewee, and she’s a pretty unique lady who works in design. So let’s get right to it. Meet the Dublin-bred Aislinn Lynch!

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Aislinn Lynch is an Irish designer working in wood veneer.  After earning her BA in Interior and Furniture Design from the Dublin Institute of Technology in 2011, Aislinn (pronounced Ash-lin) was awarded studio space and mentoring at the Malthouse Design Centre, where she is currently based as a Resident Designer. She became interested in woodworking in her last year as an undergraduate and has since exhibited her work in galleries such as the Light Fantastic, where her collection “Lady” was showcased along with more than a dozen Irish lighting designers.

Growing up between Dublin, Chicago, and Windsor, England, Aislinn’s profession is a bit of a departure from her upbringing—her parents worked in finance. But her passion for creating beautiful works of art with her hands has proved fulfilling, and at times, surreal. Her positive, open-minded demeanor, combined with her intuit for aesthetics, have paved the way for a long-lasting career in the world of design. But money isn’t anywhere near her biggest motivating factor. It’s simply the joy of creating and collaborating that inspires her work.

Friends… meet Aislinn!

Explain how you came into wood-working and furniture design. What originally peaked your interest and held it?

I think I was always interested in design in some way. As a teen I loved flicking through my mom’s Image: Home magazine (and still do!) and watching all of the interior design shows on TV. When it came to my final year in school, I put ‘Design: Interior and Furniture’ in DIT down as my first choice and got accepted. I knew that the course eventually divided into Furniture or Interior Design, and I came into the course looking forward to the Interior Design but actually immensely enjoyed the furniture aspect of the course. You were working with tools, learning about machines and were able to actually make your design. My interest peaked in my final year when I came across veneer (thin slices of wood) that really fascinated me. It allowed me to make elegant pieces by emphasizing its natural curves which looked very beautiful to me.

What do you love about working with your hands? Have you always enjoyed it, even as a kid?

I think it’s more the great satisfaction of creating something from scratch from your own hands. Something that was previously not there is now because you created it. As a kid, I was quite interested in making things, but it wasn’t something I envisioned for my future.

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Is your profession predominantly male, or is it a mix? Where do you fit into that mix?

In college, the course was roughly seven boys and 40 girls. I’m not sure why, but maybe when people see “interior design” in a course title they actually see cushions! pink! wallpaper! girly things! when it is far from that. People still ask me about my curtain making skills having done interior design in college…

Most people would think it would be predominantly male since there is a lot of manual work, but even in the studio I’m in now it is 50/50.

Describe your first exhibit. Was it at all surreal?

As part of my design thesis senior year, we exhibited in a large gallery in the centre of Dublin which was my first taste of it, but I think my first “real world” exhibition was the one I had this May. I had been in the Malthouse for only four months when the business manager, Rosemary, said she wanted to have a proper launch for myself and Kathryn (fellow classmate also in the Malthouse and one of my best friends). As we were both working on lighting products, she organized an exhibition to showcase the best of Irish Lighting Design. We would be exhibiting our pieces beside those of very well known designers—very intimidating!

The night was such a success with over 100 people showing as well as press from the Irish Times who interviewed us all. It was surreal to get such great feedback and such interest in my pieces. My friend Kathryn and I went out for a celebratory dinner the following week so we could properly take in what had just happened!

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What were some of your favorite classes in school? Were there any teachers in particular who inspired you?

My favourite classes in school were art, German, and French. Languages and linguistics are something I’ve always been drawn to, and to be honest, my German teacher was the one who inspired me a lot. She had such a passion for what she was doing and you could clearly see this. She made each class exciting and different.

I chose to go the Design/Art direction for college as I had always envisioned going to art college and knew that I had enough drive to continue my languages in between my studies, which I did.

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How meaningful is it to have your own mentor and workspace? Explain how that came about, as well as the difference it has made in your work.

It came about because of my graduating exhibition at the end of my final year in college. An architect, who I had previously met, told me how much he liked my pieces. He sent me an email later that week and asked me to come in for a chat. I brought in my sketchbooks to show him and his partner. They said that If I was interested in continuing to work on my pieces they would give me some workspace in their growing design hub, The Malthouse.

Being in the Malthouse has pushed me so much further than I could have ever done on my own. In my area I have two other girls who graduated with me, [my friend] Kathryn and Grainne, both furniture designers. I have Jennifer Slattery, a well-known textile designer and Jamie Lewis who works in felt—our newest edition to the Malthouse. Having this interesting mix of people around me allows me to ask questions and get feedback on designs. At the beginning I had no idea about pricing, wholesale or retail and how to go about getting pieces in stores, so this has helped me so much.

Are you able to sustain yourself financially through your artistic work? And is that the goal, or do you have other interests?

The ultimate question! Unfortunately, I’m not able to sustain myself financially just yet. Although this would be great, it wasn’t my main aim at all. At the beginning of coming into the Malthouse, I was even new to the idea that you could actually make money from designs you made! It just seemed like a great bonus.

I’ve had a part time job whilst working in the studio to keep myself going and to have money to put into the designs. This has also worked because it means I only have a certain amount of time in the studio so it forces me to make the most of it.

My main objective coming into this studio was to build a beautiful portfolio of pieces I am proud of and give me the opportunity to try out new ideas.

Is there such a thing as “furniture maker’s block”? Or, do you ever experience lulls in inspiration?

Yes! Anyone in an artistic field feels this block once in a while. Generally I feel the lulls are beacuse of other things in my life. What seems like a lull can in fact be the build up of “personal mind clutter” that need to be looked at before coming back to design. If I come back and still feel uninspired, brainstorms always help me to see things clearly and get back on track. Asking myself basic questions like why are you designing this? or why is this important? can get me to realize why I started doing this in the first place and get me excited again!

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What makes your pieces unique?

I know everyone says that are no new ideas and everything has been done before, but I don’t believe this! If you truly love something and put all of yourself into it, I feel it is unique. I took a material that I loved and created something I felt did the material justice—taking its best qualities and accentuating them whilst putting a lot of myself into them, this is its unique quality.

What has played a bigger role in your success thus far: luck or persistence?

Persistence! I’m not sure I believe in luck. I believe you get somewhere because of the work you put in to it.

Thanks so much for your insight into the world of design, Aislinn! If you enjoyed Aislinn’s words (and if you think her designs are gorgeous), let her know in the comments!

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Wanted: YOU!

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After a year-and-a-half at my company, my job is finally going full-time in January. (Shout-out to all those baby makers going on maternity leave!) I’m pretty psyched for the perks of such a promotion (mo’ money, mo’ money), but I must admit I’ve been anxious about how this will affect my blog. As it stands, my current schedule allows for a lot of free time. Free time means blogging time, and as you know, I like to post with some frequency. What will happen when I work till 5 and have to decide between going to the gym, blogging, or running straight home and stuffing my face before promptly passing out? I have a feeling I already know—I’m probably going to opt for face-stuffing and food coma-ing more often than I’ll ever admit. It’s a trade-off, this “full-time” thing.

Of course, I love my blog too much to let it become neglected. I will obviously continue to write. But I could use some help keeping it up while I’m getting adjusted to a new schedule and taking on unfamiliar projects at work. That’s where you come in!

I’m on the lookout for guest writers for January. And I want you to pitch me your ideas.

That’s right! I want ya. And your ideas. I’m open to a number of topics, but here are a few suggestions:

Are you a freelance writer? Write about writing. Effective writing habits, ways to get inspired, pushing past a lack of motivation. Or write a personal essay! I’d like something that’s inspiring, yes, but also real.
Are you a photographer? Do a photo post. It could be themed (wanderlust, faces, nature), or it could be a photo walk of your town or favorite spot. High quality images, please!
Are you obsessed with the Internet? You could be my guest Interweb Finds blogger. Gather a collection of awesome and timely reads, cool videos, or whatever you deem worthy of sharing. Descriptions that make people want to click through are a must.
Have you already written a great post on your own blog? I welcome you to re-share it here. It’s a chance to give exposure to a post that might be buried in your archives but still deserves to be read. (You can always spruce it up with edits if need be.) A link to your original post is most definitely encouraged.
Have another idea? Pitch it! I like funny, poignant, serious, visually pleasing, and relatable styles of writing.

Not only will you be helping me out—and making me eternally grateful—but you’ll also get a little attention for your own blog, if you have one. Which brings up another point: This call for guest writers is also open to non-bloggers who’d like to dabble! Imagine yourself at parties: “Oh, I do a little bit of this. A little bit of that. Been dabbling in some blogging here and there. NBD.”

Remember, this is for January. That means post-holiday season, for those of you feeling frazzled at the moment. Even if you don’t have an idea right now but think you would be interested, drop me a line so we can work together on possible topics. While I reserve the right to turn down anything that doesn’t seem like a good fit for my blog, I’d really rather say “yes” than “no.”

Send all pitches, inquiries, or love letters to . (Proper spelling and grammar will undoubtedly win me over.) Can’t wait to hear from you!

 

In case you missed the memo: The blogosphere is full of introverts. Join us, won’t you?

Introverts unite

“Many people believe that introversion is about being antisocial, and that’s really a misperception. Because actually it’s just that introverts are differently social. So they would prefer to have a glass of wine with a close friend as opposed to going to a loud party full of strangers.”
– Susan Cain, author of Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking

I think my introversion is evident on this blog, as it’s something I talk about pretty openly. The amazing Hanna over at Excelsior Lady—an introvert herself—picked up on that. And then she had a rather brilliant idea, which I’m psyched she decided to share with me. Fellow introverts, you, too, should be psyched. Because now Hanna and I share this idea (which we hope will spread in the blogosphere full of introverts) with YOU.

Introverts unite!

(All the pretty things! Read on to learn about the message behind these badges and how to score these awesome designs for your own blog.)

Personal Space is Good for You

Introversion is a character trait of someone who is thoughtful. Someone who is quiet. Someone who is introspective. Not necessarily shy—although they may be—introverts crave solitude and time to reflect. Unlike our extroverted counterparts who are so celebrated in today’s culture, introverts don’t need to be constantly occupied and entertained. We have existed and thrived this way pretty much since the dawn of humanity. But for some reason, we are so often perceived as people who need to be worked on, brought out of our shells, because of this trait that is inherent to who we are as people.

“Writing is something you do alone. It’s a profession for introverts who want to tell you a story but don’t want to make eye contact while doing it.” – John Green

It’s no coincidence that many bloggers are introverts. We take the time each week to sit down and express what we’re thinking or evaluate where we’re headed in life. Some people—people who don’t get it—have this stereotypical image of bloggers in their heads: a hipster with nerd glasses in a chain coffee shop waxing poetic and ignoring the world around them. This person they’ve drawn up in their heads is antisocial and strange, and not at all a true depiction of us bloggers who are so much deeper than that. (Though there’s nothing wrong with nerd glasses. If you rock ’em, you go on with your bad self.)

We all know that stereotype is a lie. Just look around at all the blogs we read. The communities we’ve built. The connections we’ve established. The friendships we’ve made. And all of this through our writing! We are, in fact, very social people. What Hanna and I mean to say is: we introverts are—gasp!—complex individuals who are capable of being introverted and social, intelligent, self-starting, and opinionated.

So here’s where you come in. If you’re an introvert, and you feel as though you’ve been misperceived as shy/slow/weird/irrelevant because of who you are, we invite you to put one of these badass badges (Style 1, Style 2 – right click and “save as”) designed by Hanna on your blog and write a blog post based on the following prompt:

Just because I’m an introvert doesn’t mean…

From there, the rest is up to you. We hope you will share this with your bloggy friends and, in the process, reveal your inner awesomeness that might not be immediately evident. (Because shoving said awesomeness in other people’s faces isn’t your style.)

“Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.”
– Carl Jung

As for me? Just because I’m an introvert doesn’t mean…

…I’m not full of ideas. I am. It just takes time and thought for me to properly express them, which is what my blog is for.

…I don’t know how to have a good time. Boy, do I know how to have a good time. My version of a good time is music on the stereo, homemade pizza in John’s kitchen, and wine aplenty. Add some Key & Peele on Comedy Central to the mix, and I’m golden.

…my success is limited. Back before reality TV, charisma wasn’t the end-all be-all in terms of indicators of success. There are a lot of famous, accomplished introverts in our history, and they didn’t have to entertain others with their charm to achieve their status. I’m not saying I can’t fake it, but small talk with strangers ain’t my thang. When I’m a big success, it’ll be due to the words I put on paper (or screen), rather than connections made at some cool party.

We hope you’ll join in and spread the love with this idea, and please send us a link if you do. Whoever sends me a link to their post will be added to a list right here. Introverts unite!

 

Participating bloggers:
Steve Earley
My Perfectly Imperfect Life
My Quarter-Life Crisis
Delightfully Awkward Brit
A Sowing Season
Snow, Glass, Apple
Whim of Whimsicality
Blackberry Lips
The Introvert Files
Hella Quirky
All Things Lena
Lyss.me
A Little Serendipity
There’s Only One Box
Imani’s Lounge
No Map Provided
Becoming Bailey
Rockwitch.net
This Muse is Taken
Awash With Wonder
Kristology
My Name is April
It’s a Geek Life
Mariella Hunt
The Introvert Ideal
Tangerine Meg
6birds
Whimsyical
Her Silent Musings
A Free Spirit From Jersey

Interweb Finds: Stunning photography, you as an action figure & more

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This weekend, I got my wasabi fix with lots of sushi, attended a yoga class for the first time ever, and went to what just might’ve been my favorite concert of the year—despite many encounters with douchebaggery. (More on that later.) Now? I’m ready to veg in front of the Ravens/Steelers game, drink wine, and do very little else. Before we launch into the start of yet another week, here’s a photo-heavy collection of my favorite stuff on the webz.

Isn’t that photo (above) of the floating woman dreamy? See the whole series, “Over Paris,” from 1963 here.

I don’t know about you, but the eight-year-old in me would be psyched to have one of these 3D action figures made to look like… you. Who am I kidding—23-year-old me is just as giddy at the prospect.

And you thought the Fiat was tiny. Take a look at the 1955 BMW Isetta. (Warning: not suitable for those prone to fits of claustrophobia.)

In what must’ve been quite the painstaking editing process, these photos depict earthquake locations, blending images of then and now.

Awesome Chinese grandpa models teen girl clothes. That’s all I have to say about that.

An interview with New York Times best-selling author Tim Terriss (of The 4-Hour Work Week fame) and his take on the creative process and getting your work noticed.

“As odd as it sounds, go back to pen and paper. Because once you’re on the computer and distraction is a click away, you’re just like a rat with a cocaine dispenser. You’re going to get toasted.”

Looks like I have some traveling to do. Stunning photos of places that are, amazingly, real.

Hope you all had a loverly weekend!

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The “Lucky” Ones – An interview with travel writer and NYU undergrad Haley Houseman

It’s time for another installment of what should be called the people-you-wish-you-knew-in-real-life interview series. Today’s interviewee is someone you’d want for a travel buddy. Smart, ambitious, and energetic, this gal is an undergrad at NYU and has already seen some incredible places in this world. So let’s get right to it. Meet the lovely and lucky Haley Houseman!

One thing is for sure about Haley Houseman: she follows her own path, even if she has to pave it herself. And that’s exactly what the 22-year-old NYU undergrad did when deciding where her studies would take her. They would, in fact, take her to India, Ghana, Argentina, and soon, the Czech Republic. But first, Haley had to hash out the details of an individualized major that would allow for such a jet-setting lifestyle. It took some soul-searching, as well as gaining support from her mentors, but Haley landed on a focus on post-colonial studies and nonfiction writing (with a minor in global studio arts). It ended up being the best thing she could have done for herself.

Currently studying abroad in Argentina through December, the Boston native also writes a travel blog and hopes to pursue a career that involves her passions of writing and travel. Haley is also a photography enthusiast and is conversationally fluent in Hindi and Spanish. Next on her list of places to visit? Morocco, Sweden, and Italy, to name a few.

Friends, here she is!

It seems you’ve traveled everywhere. But what was the first big trip that started it all?

It may seem that way, but I definitely haven’t! I’ve only ever been to India, Ghana, and Argentina (which are all the places I’ve studied) and then Peru, my first place to “visit”! I still feel like a travel newbie. India was the very first time I’d left the country, and it was surreal to pack up my life in one suitcase and move away, far away from home for a year. I knew nothing when I got there but it was an amazing experience that totally changed how I see the world, how I see cultural exchange. I was hooked!

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In your study abroad experience, have you had the chance to completely immerse yourself in the various cultures?

India was a complete immersion, as complete as a little white girl can be in the subcontinent, and I think it’s really the best way. I went to school, lived with families by their rules, and tried to learn as best I could. I ended up with an enormous wardrobe of salwar kameez and sarees, and a bit of an Indian accent. Since then, I’ve lived a dorm in Ghana, where I felt like I didn’t learn nearly as much about the place and the people. Here in Argentina I live in a host family again, and my Spanish has improved so much, my concept of Argentina is so much more complex. I am learning so much! I wish I could have taken more classes in Spanish, but my Spanish definitely suffered from my Hindi studies. Making Argentine friends helps me to feel like I’m using my Spanish and being immersed.

What attracted you to individualized study? How has it helped foster your mobile lifestyle?

I actually applied to the Individualized Study program as a one-off—most of the programs I applied to had core programs, or were art schools. I really had no idea what I wanted, I was so focused on getting into my study abroad program. NYU happened to be the perfect combination for me, because they gave me freedom to figure out what I wanted AND they gave me money. In retrospect, it was the best thing I could have done for myself. My program allowed me to explore what I was interested in, but I never would have expected what my concentration is now: Post Colonial Studies and Travel Narratives with a Global Visual Arts minor. My concentration is also a good excuse for traveling: I’m studying in post-colonial nations, which has me spending three semesters on three different continents. I was lucky enough to find an advisor who understood both my vision for my concentration and my desire to travel. We email regularly, and I just turned in my pre-thesis paper yesterday.

Describe how you’ve created and tailored your own curriculum. Is it more challenging than following one prescribed area of study? More rewarding?

Well, my advisor has been a huge part of it, as well as some professors who have taken the time to help me in and out of class. One of the biggest struggles I had personally was identifying the specific areas of theory I wanted to engage with, and that took me until this semester to articulate fully. I think that since an individualized major is really only for you, it is worth as much as you choose to put into it. I have put a lot of work into developing my concentration and pursuing the topics I think will inform it, because at the end of the day the only one who will lose out if I slack off is me. Also, I love my major, and it’s basically a culmination of everything I am interested in, so it’s not that big of an imposition. I don’t think most students who choose a pre-constructed major usually feel so passionate about their studies. I can’t really speak to whether it’s more rewarding, but I love it, and I can’t imagine having done anything else.

Which traveling experiences have been the most memorable or have made the biggest impact on your life?

India, absolutely. I went back this past spring to visit and it felt like coming home again. It was a blissful two weeks of visits and backpacking that made me remember why I became addicted to travel and cultural studies. It completely changed my life, and it made me the person that I am today. It also made me a stronger person, and I can’t imagine making plans to study and travel the way I have if I hadn’t had a year all by myself in rural India. After that, I have complete faith in my ability to make lemons into lemonade, no matter what the situation.

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What is the biggest culture shock you’ve encountered? How do you pick up on cultural customs on the fly?

Moving from India to New York City was the biggest culture shock, and it made for a couple of uncomfortable years in New York. As much as I love my program, New York is a hard adjustment to make. I’ll be glad to go back next year, but right now I’m enjoying traveling too much to want to go back, and I wasn’t sad to leave at the time. As for cultural customs, I don’t know about picking up customs. I think its important to read about places and do your research before you travel to a place. I always try to read a few books of nonfiction and fiction before I go, and of course—travel writing pieces! Otherwise I try to pay attention and ask lots of questions. A little mimicry doesn’t hurt, but honestly between the bright clothes and the camera, I tend to stick out anywhere.

I would imagine between living with five families, meeting countless locals, and studying amongst your peers, you’ve met many people who, in some way or another, have greatly influenced you. Who are some of these people? How has your life changed because of them?

Oh wow, that’s a huge list! I’m going to do one per place, I think it’s easiest that way, but I’ll be leaving so many people out! In India, one of the people who made a lasting impact above and beyond improving my life generally was my professor, my only professor who tried to make school meaningful and ended up introducing me to a whole new world of self publishing and Indian alt lit. It was like a literary gateway drug. She made me realize the potential of my experience, and of the individualized major I was about to go into. In New York, things began to feel like no one noticed what I was doing or really cared—it’s a big school in a big city, and it can feel that way if you don’t—or can’t—advocate for yourself.  When I came to this professor uncertain of my next step, she took me under her wing and pointed me to my current advisor, who has supported all my travels and encouraged my writing. In Ghana and Buenos Aires, there have been important professors, but the people that I really remember are friends who pushed me and motivated me to do better, and most importantly, traveled with me. The girls who traveled with me to India and Peru in the past year—ten days is a long time to spend alone with one person. Of course it changes you! All of these people, and so many more have turned me into the person I am now, and hopefully are turning me into the writer I hope to be.

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What about naysayers—have you had any of those in your life? How do you ignore the negativity?

I’m lucky enough that I’m probably my own biggest naysayer. I have an incredibly supportive family and group of friends, and I work hard to make sure I make them proud. Otherwise, I don’t really keep company with people who tell me I can’t. It’s a waste of time. My own negativity and insecurity is definitely my biggest obstacle—that and Netflix. I struggle, like most college students, with issues of productivity and distraction, especially abroad.

Have there been any downfalls to traveling? Scary encounters, disappointing visits, or unexpected surprises?

I’ve been pickpocketed twice—once in Buenos Aires, once in India, and my best friend was mugged when I was with her. Life in Buenos Aires is getting more unstable as the economics get more complicated and inflation goes up. Those are definitely the scariest moments, though at the end of the day I am pretty prepared for stuff like that. I’ve been very lucky as well, and I rely on my gut when I’m trying to figure out how to react. There have been times when I’ve done things that on paper were a terrible idea (most recently, accepting a ride from a doorman when I was terribly lost) that were actually much safer than the “good option.”

The two places I’ve been that are those huge “destinations,” tourist attractions that make people say “I can’t believe you’ve been there!” were a disappointment to me, though I don’t think that’s a universal experience. I had a really weird time at the Taj Mahal, and though it was beautiful, it wasn’t nearly as amazing as the Golden Temple of Amritsar. Machu Picchu was beautiful, but the highlight of that trip was a random tiny wildlife sanctuary where I spent a few hours playing with a capybara and a parrot. As I travel more I realize that I enjoy most those moments that are unplanned and under the radar.

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How has documenting your journey on your blog enhanced your writing? Will you or do you pursue writing in other formats?

My writing has definitely improved since I started putting real work into my blog. There’s nothing like having an audience, no matter how small, to make you care about what you’re saying and how you say it. But writing for the blog is so different from what I do in my personal writing. I’ve been studying travel writing, both the praxis and the theory, and taking that seriously has made a huge impact on how I look at writing, and where I want to go with it. I’m definitely going to pursue writing in a more formal way, both through school and outside of it, but right now I am still feeling things out.

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It’s a cliche of a question, but what do you want to do post-grad?

Ahh! Don’t ask me that! No, but really, I’m not sure. There’s a lot of different directions I’ve been considering, most of which involve travel or writing. But I’ve also considered service work for a while. It’s hard, because I miss my family and my friends back in the States but I know that those are the things I love. I’m torn.

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Do you have any book recommendations for fellow travelers, students, or anyone with general wanderlust?

I definitely do! I have always been a voracious reader, and I’m always missing my library.  This is by no means an exhaustive list of travel writing, but it’s my current list of favorites.
I would say for the basics, travel authors to check out: Bruce Chatwin, Pico Iyer, and Paul Theroux.

  • Bruce Chatwin, What Am I Doing Here?
  • Bruce Chatwin, In Patagonia
  • Pico Iyer, “Why We Travel” (essay)
  • Alain de Botton, The Art of Travel
  • Gregory David Roberts, Shantaram
  • Robert M. Pirsig, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance: An Inquiry into Values

There is a whole world of travel literature out there—go explore it!

Thank you, Haley! I loved reading about your travels, and those photos are absolutely gorgeous. Readers, if you agree, let Haley know in the comments!

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A woman to aspire to

a woman to aspire to

Like most girls growing up, I always imagined the kind of woman I’d eventually become.

I was an insecure kid with a lot of quirks and beauty I hadn’t yet dared to see in myself. I caught glimpses of it sometimes, but would end up too distracted by my imperfections and everything I hadn’t “figured out” yet. In my mind, the twenty-something version of me would be a woman to aspire to—she’d have it all figured out, and she’d be beautiful.

I’m going to go ahead and say something that might sound conceited: I am beautiful. How controversial of me to say so. How dare I love myself? But I do. Not always. Right now, for example, I look downright teenage in my snowflake pajamas without make-up on, and I constantly obsess over my perpetually dry skin that sometimes flakes or scars. But damnit, I am beautiful, inside and out. (Don’t dare to think otherwise of yourself, either. Somewhere in a parallel universe, my younger self is hearing this, and it’s working wonders.)

Anyway, so back to this picture my sweet, deluded child self had conjured up of the present me. If today I’m saying I’m beautiful (we’ll see how I feel tomorrow), then at least what I had in mind then is half-true. The other half? Not so much. I think I’ve made all the right moves so far (with several mistakes behind and certainly ahead of me), but that doesn’t mean I’ve got adolescent-turned-adult skin problems, let alone life, figured out.

Most twenty-somethings—myself included—obsess over where they’ll be living, or what career path they’ll end up on, or if they’ll get married, and WHO they’ll marry, and oh-my-God-do-I-even-LIKE-kids-let-alone-ever-want-to-have-any? And that’s about as far into the future as most of us bloggers (especially those on Thought Catalog) who deign to narrate such thoughts ever really go with it. For some reason, it seems as though we’re still slightly illuded that our future selves will FINALLY have it all figured out.

Rarely do we take the time to consider the kind of people we’ll be at 50. Or 60. Or 97. Why is that? Do we all just assume we’ll be wise, or do we think “old” (which is a relative term, anyway) people don’t have similar worries, or don’t matter quite as much because they’ve already contributed work and offspring to society? Of course they matter—those are our parents and grandparents we’re talking about. Is it just that old age seems too far into the distant future to even comprehend?

This would make sense, considering how different the world we live in now is compared with the world of our young grandparents. If society and technology and the population can take off so astronomically just in the past few decades, imagine how different it could be when our friends are dying.

So here’s a challenge to my fellow young (again, relative term!) people: envision yourself in the future. Not the ten-years-from-now future. The seemingly distant future. The future that anyone over 50 will likely tell you isn’t as distant as it may seem. Now that we’re all slightly wiser than our preadolescent selves, let’s try to come up with something a little more specific and a lot more realistic than “generally beautiful and all-knowing.”

Gray-haired Cassie? She still wears her hair long. She is confident, and long ago stopped worrying about what people think of her. She is kind, funny, occasionally frazzled, yes, but never more than five minutes late. Physically, spiritually, and otherwise, she remains in touch with her former young self. In fact, she works out. Daily. Still has muscles and a nice figure, even if it’s changed slightly over time. A few laugh lines are permanently etched into her face from a lifetime of belly laughs, but her skin makes her appear younger than she is because she became diligent about sunscreen in her twenties.

Gray-haired Cassie is also incredibly smart. With an impressive vocabulary (and a persisting tendency to say “y’all” a lot), she has accomplished her dream of publishing a novel a few times over. She’s still super-close with her younger sisters, and doesn’t envy them too much for being generally cuter and more youthful. She is able to look back at her life and pinpoint exactly where she made mistakes and is grateful that they led her to where she is now. She’s learned to live with only the most beautiful things she owns, even if she only has a few of them. She is a woman of self-love and satisfaction. And despite many doubts, missteps, and setbacks, her optimism—however peppered with sarcasm—has prevailed. Also? She still doesn’t have it all figured out. And accepts that.

Knowing that this is what I want and envision for myself makes clear a few things, and it raises some questions: One, what is it I should start doing now to become that woman? If I want to get to that point of self-actualization sooner, I better start acting like the woman I describe.

Two, what is it I should stop doing now to become that woman? No self-loving goddess would tell herself, No, don’t bother applying to that amazing school. The chances of you getting in are slim, and that’s a hefty application fee.

And three, what do I already share with the woman I describe? I’m smart, kind of funny sometimes, I take care of my body, and I’ve laughed a lot. 

And that? That counts for something.